seeking

i know it's a new dawn

a dawn heralding the coming dusk

and yet i welcome you.

i know you are a spring

who will melt in my autumn

and yet i desire you.

i am tired

of being the 'good' female

i wish to be a woman

—as i was before time began .

let me sin or deny me life

but don't stifle me any more with ideals.