7 love poems of a doomed affair

(1)

I loved you so -
I made a space for god in my atheist mind.
A sinking woman and her idol of straw.

(2)

Loving you is an eternal falling
    - through Alice's hole.

(3)

When you smile at me -
it's like I have taken a huge gulp of warm honey
on a cold, winter night.

(4)

I forgot to tell you -
         I have made you my reason for leaving.

And then the world ended.

(5)

An evening like this comes every hundred days.

If I could only give up all those ninety-nine days of my life,
and spend my few evenings with you.

(6)

The devil dwells in your eyes.
No wonder you are unaware
that your eyes say something different.
Than you.

(7)

Let me end with a lie this false love of mine -
I do not love you.

To the man I shall stop loving tonight

We are doomed to be strangers
- forever passing each other by.
Our destination so apart
- that even two steps together
is a renounced hope.

We spiral towards each other
- and wham! the moment we collide,
are pushed farther away than we ever were.

I would have stopped and waited -
till love curdled into indifference.
Or I could have tried to convince you -
of the beauty of my chosen road,
and waited for the ennui to kick in.

I am leaving you now -
before rottenness has wind of spring,
with the fragrance of  a single evening
pressed into the pages of time.

I am leaving you, and with you I leave
the "I" of that evening -
the "I" who shall love you forever.